Daily Writing Check-in: December 22, 2018

Words/Time: 1 hour, 14 minutes doing some early revision of “Pursuit of Power.”

I have a list of 24 items that need changed in the story. These are just the issues I knew about and wrote down either right after I wrote it (during NaNoWriMo in 2014) or when I first tried to revise it in February of 2016.

A few months ago, I went through the list and marked each item as either simple to fix, difficult to fix, or to be left for later. During today’s work, I revised all of the simple items (there were 10). Next, I’ll go through the difficult ones (8). Then I’ll read through the whole thing to find what else needs revised to make it a decent read before moving on from this story for now.

Daily Writing Check-in: December 21, 2018

Words/Time: 1 hour, 51 minutes, finishing item #2 in my list of short-term writing goals, and starting on #3:

1. Remove NaNo fodder from 2018 NaNoNovel, put scenes into Scrivener while I still remember my ideas

2. Make Aeldrim not be dead in “Pithea

3. Revise “Pursuit of Power” just enough to be readable by a friend who is interested. I have hefty revisions planned for the structure of that book, but it will take a long time, and they won’t affect the overall story of this world, just what goes into that book. So before I dig into the major work that was part of my recent absence from writing, I want to just make it readable.

4. Read through “Pithea” for further necessary changes

Finishing #2 took me over an hour, but I think I have removed all references to the aftermath of Aeldrim’s death. Now he gets to live and drive everyone crazy in future stories (which will mean I have to write him in to some drafts, but that’s okay. Writing him is a challenge and requires me to step out of my comfort zone, which is a good thing).

As for #3, I have to be careful here. The revision of this book contributed to my almost-3-year hiatus from writing. I am not looking forward to figuring out what I have to do to make this book work. But even just making this post, and re-reading my plan for goal #3 led me to realize that I’m doing too much right now. The plan is just to fix it up the way it is, make it readable, not make it “work.” I will keep the small amount of changes I made on the way to figuring out a better plot line, but instead of continuing down that path (for now), I am going to dig out my list of bigger changes that need made before I am comfortable letting anyone read it.

This friend who is going to read it was instrumental in getting me to where I am in writing these stories, and I know he will enjoy the story for what it is, even with the scenes that I will eventually deem unnecessary to the story (or just having the wrong focus). I look forward to hearing his thoughts on this draft.

Daily Writing Check-in: December 3, 2018

Words/Time: 29 minutes removing “NaNo fodder” from my 2018 NaNoNovel.

It’s not as quick as it sounds. I have to find the areas where I’d marked words for deletion during NaNoWriMo, then figure out what words exactly need deleted. I didn’t just strike through everything I didn’t want to keep, because it takes longer. I put an end bracket to mark a spot and moved on. So now I have to figure out where the bad words start so I can delete them. This is probably a confusing explanation, but the point is, it’s a lot of searching and then some reading.

I worked on the same thing yesterday, and removed 1000 words. Today I removed 356, and I’m only on pg. 37 out of 134. I did this as an early revision step to my NaNoNovel in 2014, and it seemed to go a lot faster. Then again, I didn’t track my time, but I still got it done in 3 days. Though I only removed 4000 words, and I’ve already removed more than a quarter of that in 2 days. At this rate, it will take me over a week to finish, unless I have time to fit more work in some days.

With NaNo behind me, I want to move forward with revising other works. I have left my writing sit (outside of November) for far too long now. Here are my short-term goals:

1. Remove NaNo fodder from 2018 NaNoNovel, put scenes into Scrivener while I still remember my ideas

2. Make one obvious change to “Pithea” that is not actually a huge change for that book, but will affect future books a lot. Basically, a side character dies for no real reason, and I’ve realized that future books would be much better if he lived. So he’s going to not die, but because his death did allow a minor plot point to happen that still has to happen, I have to first brainstorm how to make that plot point happen anyway.

3. Revise “Pursuit of Power” just enough to be readable by a friend who is interested. I have hefty revisions planned for the structure of that book, but it will take a long time, and they won’t affect the overall story of this world, just what goes into that book. So before I dig into the major work that was part of my recent absence from writing, I want to just make it readable.

4. Even though I did declare “Pithea” finished a few years ago and sent it off to a couple of publishers, writing that I have done since then has led me to make some changes to it already. Changes like aging most of the characters up 3 years. I think that before I can move on to revising the next book, I need to make sure I don’t need to make changes to the first one. Plus, I think it’ll help me get back into the swing of things if the book that starts it all is fresh in my mind. It’s been so dusty lately.

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Granted, it’s not as exciting as filling the chart in November, but I’m glad to have somewhere to chart my daily progress. My goal works out to an average of (approximately) 20 minutes per day during the month of December.

 

Evolution of a NaNoNovel

Last month was a whirlwind for me, and as I look back and see how my NaNoNovel changed drastically throughout the month, I want to share that trip.

I started with an outline for a pure romance that was set in a nebulous world that I hadn’t put any thought into. The plot and characters were the core of the story, and it would be written with a mind toward a medieval time period, though not necessarily set in medieval times on earth. This happened mostly because I didn’t take any time to plan for NaNoWriMo during the time leading up to it. I haven’t been in a writing place (outside of NaNo) for the last few years, despite my devotion to it in the past.

This story, which I named “Protector” on day 2, was one I dreamed up 2 years ago during November, when what I was writing about was too hard. Then I outlined it a year later, realizing that if I didn’t get the scenes down, I’d forget key details. During October this year, I did consider writing this story, but wasn’t sold on it, and was still considering other ideas. At a writing group 2 days before November 1st, a fellow writer suggested that, because I’ve been busy and was still not prepared, I should just write a simple, but fun romance (I’d stated during the writing group that I enjoyed writing romance sometimes, though usually more subtle romances, and definitely nothing racy). She said that I should think of what I would consider a romantic location, somewhere I’ve always thought was a beautiful place, and write about myself as the MC, meeting someone and falling in love.

My mind immediately went to the coast of Maine (I’ve never been there but always romanticized it), and pretty quickly I thought of the story I had outlined in the past. It was a romance with very little substance outside of the romance, and the final scenes were set in a place that I imagined to be quite like the coast of Maine. So I was sold.

It didn’t take me long to decide that this story could actually be set in the same story world as my other books. However, while most of those books take place in the country of Pithea, this one would take place in a different country–one that was very different from Pithea. The main difference is that Pithea has made the Power part of their everyday lives. This other country, named Altmoor, doesn’t even know about the Power, and certainly doesn’t use it. However, because the Power does exist, I knew that some of the fantastical elements that I had dreamed up before I knew what kind of world this would be could be adjusted to fit into my main world.

In particular, there’s a bad guy who brings his army against Altmoor, its allies, and even its enemies. He is actually from Altmoor, but learned about the Power on his own, and uses it against his home region. The problem with that came when my outline simply said that he was defeated somehow. I found that I couldn’t just…move on, but there wasn’t an easy way for him to be defeated by this region that didn’t know anything about this sorcery he possessed.

Another issue I had with my original outline was that it didn’t produce a very long story on its own. It likely would have come up just shy of 50k words, which I realized on day 6, when I was halfway through the outline, but not halfway through 50k words (I was at 21k). At that point, I decided to slow down on my word count, while also thinking of more meat to add to the story (not just padding, but actual story that could stay in later). I was really excited about the first new scenes that I added, even counting it as the “Aha!” moment that would get me the “Eureka Moment” badge on the NaNo website. I added other things too, and it worked out pretty well until day 22, when I started to worry that I wasn’t going to be able to finish the draft by the end of the month because I’d added too much story.

This all started with the completely out-of-left-field idea for me to bring in 2 characters from my other novels. They’re from Pithea, and are very well-trained in the use of Power, so I decided that they were going to learn about the bad guy and come to help. I loved including them. At this point, I realized that the story had changed from being a pure romance to being an introduction to the first country outside of Pithea and its union that the reader is ever shown. An introduction to the rest of the world, showing how there are places out there where the Power isn’t used at all. It was around day 22 that I came to realize this.

Then on day 25, everything changed. It was late at night, after I was done with my writing for the day. I was contemplating the new things that I had come up with and it dawned on me. I was writing book 2 of the “Pursuit of Power” trilogy.

I’ll try to make this a brief explanation. There is a big secret that overshadows all of my books, and one man is going to reveal it. His story starts in what has so far been called “Pursuit of Power,” but I knew it was going to take more books to tell the whole story well. Somewhere along the line I decided it would likely be a trilogy (though I’m not married to the idea), just based on how I imagined it playing out, though truthfully, I have done very little planning past the 1st book. It’s just such a daunting task. I have more recently decided that the whole trilogy would be better called “Pursuit of Power,” though whether that will change the name of the first novel or not, I don’t know.

Either way, on the night of the 25th, I realized that what was happening in this book was exactly what would need to happen next in the trilogy. So I wondered if I could make this book work as book 2 of the trilogy, and I think I can. It’s so exciting; I can hardly believe it happened like this!

However, this meant I had to come up with a whole new climax to the novel. In a romance, the climax is often just the culmination of the relationship that’s been building, and I had already written that. But with this new focus, I needed something else. And since, and I can’t stress this enough, I am not a pantser, I knew I needed to take some time to plan out the rest of the story. But I just never got to it, and kept writing, because…well, it’s NaNo.

So I pantsed a climax that was only ho-hum, but figured I could make it more exciting in editing. But as I moved on from there to what was turning out to be a rather long conclusion, I realized how wrong I was again this month, and knew exactly what the climax really needed to be, and it was still ahead of me.

This was day 30, so I was really down to the wire. I had the win already, but I knew that if I didn’t finish the draft before the month ended, it would probably drag on. So I wrote what is a much more exciting climax to this book that has changed so very much in 30 days, and even found a good way to finish the book, while leaving it open to book 3 of this trilogy.

The only problem I have now is a question of how much of what I wrote before the focus change I’ll be able to keep. There were a lot of scenes that focused on two MCs and their relationship developing, but don’t involve the new focus in the slightest bit, that I will have to map out and consider if I have to cut them, or condense them, or what.

I realize this turned out to be a very long description of what happened this month, and kudos to anyone who made it through the whole thing. I just really wanted to get all of this out there somewhere, because it was probably my most exciting NaNoWriMo ever, and that’s saying something. And considering that the excitement came in the pantsing, which I normally avoid like nothing else, it makes it all the more crazy for me.

How about you? If anyone out there wants to share their own journey, I’d love to hear about it!

Daily Writing Check-in: October 8, 2017

Words/Time: 330 words of free writing, followed by 14 minutes of NaNoPrep work.

A few days ago I read a post on a site I have really come to like, and the author had given a word list as a way to inspire some writing. I’ve been wanting to do some free writing alongside my NaNoPrep since I returned to writing a few days ago, but haven’t had a chance to go and dig out my various ways to begin free writing. Word lists have always been a favorite type of writing prompt for me, and today was no exception.

Then I opened my “Pursuit of Power” outline in Scrivener and started looking at what it would be like to cut out the first 1/4 of the story, so the true plot for this book could get started a lot sooner. I also plan to incorporate a character who’s supposed to be a secondary main character in the story more, so I’ve been toying with the idea of starting the story more from her perspective. I didn’t get real far, because I got to my writing late today, but at least it’s something.

 


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Daily Writing Check-in: October 7, 2017

Words/Time: 2:17 hours finishing the 2 mini projects I started in the last 2 days.

So I got 2 stories into my timeline that weren’t there, one of which took some serious fitting in. And then I continued figuring out who I wanted to age 3 years, and who needed a different amount for whatever reason.

Now that these annoying issues are done and fixed, tomorrow I will go back to looking at the post-first-draft outline of “Pursuit of Power” and see what scenes need to be held over for a future book and which ones are important for the real story of this first book. Hopefully I’ll be left with a decent-length book when I’m done. And hopefully this will help me decide what to write for NaNoWriMo.

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Daily Writing Check-in: October 5, 2017

Words/Time: 1 hour, which started with looking over the outline I made in Scrivener for “Pursuit of Power” when I tried to start revising it last year. I got distracted from that by a thought that I’ve been musing over for the last few days and decided if I was going to do it, now would be the time.

I’m aging most of the people in my stories by 3 years. The main characters in the stories I’ve written so far have been around 15-17 years old. The original reason for their ages was due to the fanfiction world this all started in, but I didn’t have any reason to change this before. After all, the beginning of “Pithea” shows the main characters basically just getting started in life. However, I have recently realized that there are plenty of reasons to add some years to their lives.

  1. Even though this is set in a world that is vastly safer than ours (less crime, anyway), the characters are still out on their own a lot more than I would expect a bunch of 15-year-olds to be, even traveling from town to town on their own.
  2. Folks live longer in my story world than they do in real life–not by a lot, but average live span is 25-50 years longer. It stands to reason that kids wouldn’t be pushed into starting their lives as early as I’d made it (14).
  3. I didn’t care for the way the romance felt in some of my stories, when characters were only 16 and falling in love. It isn’t meant to be teenage romance, at least one in particular; it’s meant to be viewed as real, long-lasting. But at least one of my beta readers had a hard time accepting it, because of their age, and she had a point.
  4. I don’t consider this overall series of stories to be YA, but because the book that will likely be the introduction to the entire rest of the series has 2 main characters who start off at 15 years old, it would be hard to convince anyone that the book belonged anywhere but the YA section. It’s not that I plan to have adult situations or coarse language, but the characters grow up, and in another book, are in their 20s. Very likely there will be main characters in their 30s at some point. Aging the main characters to 18 at the start of that cornerstone book will hopefully help with this issue.

So now I’m going through all of my characters who are important enough to be listed in my timeline with an official age (birth month, at least) and figuring out who should be aged forward, and how much. Someone who is in the story as a 62-year-old man, for example, may not be worth changing. And this is what I spent most of the hour on.

You know, my daily challenge check-ins never used to be this detailed.

All of this is because I’m trying to figure out if I should write the continuation of “Pursuit of Power” for NaNoWriMo or not. Aging my characters 3 years does not bring me any closer to that decision.


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Daily Writing Check-in: October 4, 2017

Words/Time:  1 hour setting up a broad outline in Scrivener for a story that needs rewriting. I’m working toward figuring out what I want to write for NaNoWriMo. I have 3 options, near as I can tell.

  1. Write the story that comes after the novel that I have so-far called “Pursuit of Power,” which itself is still in 1st draft form, and which I have realized is likely going to be book 1 in a sequence of 2 or 3, and that the entire sequence would be more aptly titled “Pursuit of Power.” I have sketchy ideas of what should happen in the next book, and I could spend the next 25 days fleshing that out.
    • Pro: I’ve started to have more ideas about what happens to Alexander after the first story ends, so I’m looking forward to delving into this completely uncharted territory.
    • Pro: It will easily be 50k words, so no worries there.
    • Con: I’m afraid I may have to tear “Pursuit of Power” apart a bit, take out the scenes that relate more to the over-arcing storylines than they do the specific plot of the first book, and knowing that is ahead of me might make it really hard to plot the next story.
    • Con: We’re talking huge, world-altering things that happen after the first “Pursuit of Power” book, and I’m not sure I’m ready to write that yet.
  2. Rewrite “Outcast,” which still only exists in original fanfiction form. Up until recently I thought I could simply revise it into my original world, but I don’t think that’s going to work anymore. And even if it did, I think I would be foolish to do it that way, since I have grown so much as a writer from when I wrote it. Because I still consider the story itself to be one of the best I’ve ever written, I have a hard time remembering that the writing could be better.
    • Pro: Because I love the story so much, and one of the main characters is my favorite of all my characters, that could make the writing easier.
    • Pro: The story is really well outlined, because I took the original story and wrote the basic idea of what happens as scene headers in Scrivener. (Same basic plot, but allows for details to change.)
    • Con: Because it’s a work I’ve written before, I may have a very difficult time writing it new, rather than trying to rewrite the scenes exactly as I remember them. I had the same problem at first when I rewrote “Pithea” from its original fanfiction form. That could definitely slow me down during NaNo, which is not preferable. On the other hand, I rewrote “Pithea” during NaNo in 2013, and it turned out very well.
    • Con: The original version of the story is only 45,000 words, and I don’t have a lot I plan to add…if anything I may have some places that will be shortened. It’s possible that in the next few weeks (or in the course of the writing), I’ll discover some new plot points for the story, but I can’t say for sure.
  3. Spend the rest of October brainstorming ideas from scratch–throw out ideas I already have, maybe even throw out the world I normally write in, and just see where the next few weeks take me.
    • Pro: Starting fresh might be fun for a change, especially if I am starting with an idea that isn’t in the same world I’ve been entrenched in for years, with the same rules.
    • Con: That is exactly what I thought in 2015 when I decided to write a novel that I planned throughout October, and it was set in modern, normal times (my group of stories are set in a futuristic, somewhat dystopian world). I finished the novel halfway through the month, painfully and messily, and then proceeded to finish the month with a story set in my normal world, one that I had planned to write before setting it aside to try something “fresh” for a change.
    • Con: Though I’m getting back to my writing again, I do still work ~20 hours a week, and can’t even guess what the next 3 weeks will bring (my work tends to fluctuate greatly), so if I don’t end up with enough time to work out a new story, but also didn’t spend the time figuring out how to proceed with 1 or 2 above, I will have a terrible NaNo.

I do believe I have talked myself out of number 3. I’m leaning toward number 1. I may work on “Pursuit of Power” (identifying any scenes that may need to be surgically removed) while also brainstorming the answers to questions I have about “Outcast,” which are related to how to make it work in my world. Hopefully sooner, rather than later, I’ll have an official novel to enter on the site.


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A New Day

I’ve been ready to write this post for about a week now. It’s the first one in almost a year and a half, so I knew it had to be epic, witty, or at least insightful. But I don’t want to write that post. I do want to address it, but in simple words. Though knowing myself as I do, it still may not be short.

At the beginning of last year, I submitted my first novel to publishers, after spending several years creating it. Without knowing if that first novel would be worth publishing, I tried to move on to revising my second novel. Then, I got a job. It was a part-time weekend job at first, working as a game master at an escape room company, but quickly became more than that, with sporadic hours. These two things together pulled me away from my regular writing work, which I’d been fairly consistent with for a few years (minus short hiatuses now and then).

In August last year, I changed to full-time with my job and became a manager. That only solidified my lack of time and mental energy to do any writing. I remember hoping that November, which would bring NaNoWriMo, would help me jump-start back into my writing.

Some time during all of this, I got a couple of rejection letters for my novel, but I was so caught up in how life was going at the time, I barely registered them.

Then in September, my dad had a heart attack and subsequent 6-bypass surgery. He’s doing well now, but was very close to death for about a week (not to be too dramatic). As NaNo approached, I decided to rebel a bit and write about the time he was in the hospital, both because he had a strong desire to know what had happened, and because I thought it might be cathartic for me.

I had a difficult time with the writing, and didn’t even get all of the events written, but I did finish NaNoWriMo. Unfortunately, because of my full-time job and the nature of my writing, NaNo did not help me return to my writing.

Fast forward almost a year, and I am now working 20 hours a week (approximately) at the same job, now as Director of Operations. The anniversary of my dad’s heart attack was last month, and he and my mom brought up the writing I said I was doing for NaNoWriMo last year. My dad has been trying to remember everything that happened during his 3-week hospital stay, and hopes that what I had written down would help.

It was still in “NaNo-form,” though, which means typos, things marked for deletion, and generally just hard to read. So I started going back through it, trying to put it in some semblance of a readable form, reading it along the way myself. While doing that, I started going back to other things I’ve written.

Over the course of the 3 weeks, I’ve read through just about everything I’ve written in the last 10 years, from the 2 complete novels, to partially drafted novels, to writing practice, drabbles, ideas, and even some of the fanfiction I wrote early on. I’m starting to have the itch to get back into it, and in some ways, I feel like I’ve just popped my head out of the cave I’ve been hunkered in for the last 17 months.

Going forward, I am going to work on writing as often as I can. I’m not going to pretend that I will be able to do writing work every day like I used to strive for. But even for the last week or so, I’ve already been writing out an outline for a story I’m not sure I want to write, but can’t avoid thinking about, so needed to at least get it down. That passion for just getting the words out is something I really miss, and I want to embrace it.

I think one of the things that disappoints me most about my time in the cave is that I barely remember participating in NaNoWriMo last year. I didn’t blog about it at all; I barely even finished. I enjoy going back later and reading through certain blog posts, remembering my writing journey, but 2016 NaNoWriMo is just a blank spot in my mind. I will be more deliberate this year.

My job, even at 20 hours a week, is still sporadic in the time those hours are put in. As Director of Operations, I am “on” from 9am until 11pm, 6 days a week, meaning that any time someone needs something from me, I’m generally expected to be available and respond. If I want to spend uninterrupted time with my family, I often have to schedule it.

I do enjoy my job. I design, implement, and modify escape rooms and get to be part of many other creative endeavors that our company is always working on. But I know that one of the reasons I do so well at that job is because, in my heart, I am a writer! 

i am a writer

This is from NaNoToons 2015. I don’t even remember last year’s NaNoToons…

For the approaching NaNoWriMo, I want to get back to traditional roots and write a new work of fiction. To do that, I have to sort through ideas I already have, see if any of them are ready to be expanded to a full outline, or decide to start something from scratch. Today begins NaNo prep season (I’m not sure how official that is, but October 1st always feels like the beginning of NaNo prep time to me). I am all in.

A Monday Moment: Homecoming

This is part of the scene I worked on a lot of last week. It continues past this, but goes into novel spoilers. Leahna is the secondary main character in “Pursuit of Power.”


After everything that had happened, Leahna could only think of one thing—seeing her dad. She waited until the morning and then went to the house where she had grown up. There was a sign on the door that announced the house would be sold to the highest bidder on a future date. Leahna stared at the sign for a full minute, trying to process it. Her father was moving out of her childhood home.

She tried the door, but it was locked. She knocked, but there was no answer. Though it was a little early for him to be at work, she went to the Academy anyway. There an old friend of the family told her that her father hadn’t been in for months. Leahna asked if the man knew where her father might be, and she was told to try her brother’s house.

After thanking the man and leaving, Leahna felt like she was in some strange dream. Her family’s house was being sold, her father wasn’t working at the job he loved, and he was staying with Ronald? In that moment, the year she had been away felt like ten. It was as if she was returning from being away at war for a long time, finding everything she left behind gone or different.

She ‘ported directly outside her brother’s house in Jaffna. She had only been there a few times, so she felt awkward as she approached the front door. At least there was no sign on this one.

She knocked tentatively, unsure what she could expect to find behind the door. Ronald answered, laughing at something to which Leahna wasn’t privy. As soon as he saw his older sister, his smile froze and his eyes grew wide.

“Leahna!” he said with exuberance. “You’re…here. You’re back.”

“Yes, I suppose I am,” she said, unsure how he even knew she’d gone anywhere.

“Are you…okay? Is everything okay?” he asked uncertainly.

There was no easy answer to that. “Not…exac—”

Her father appeared behind Ronald. As soon as he saw his eldest daughter in the doorway, he pushed past his son and pulled Leahna into his arms. She didn’t know how to react and simply stood still until he stepped back.

Once she could see him better, she realized that this was not the dad she used to know. He looked ten years older, and yet somehow happier.

“Come on in, Leahna, please,” he said. He backed up, and Ronald did likewise. All three of them moved further into the house. Abner led the way to the living room, where a woman was seated. She stood up when she saw who was with Abner and Ronald.

Betany reacted similarly to Ronald, asking Leahna if she was all right.

“I’m well enough,” Leahna said. She was staring at Betany’s stomach, where there was a noticeable protuberance. She looked to her brother for an explanation.

He offered a pained smile and said, “Betany and I are married, and she is five months pregnant.”

“You are going to have a baby?” Leahna asked, looking between her brother and his wife with some confusion. It was wonderful news; she didn’t understand why everyone looked unhappy about it. Even her father wouldn’t look her in the eye. “That’s wonderful, Ronald!”

He raised his eyebrows and let out a relieved chuckle. “It is?”

“Of course it is! Why? Is there something else going on that I do not know about?”

“No, of course not,” Abner said, going to stand next to Betany. “We just didn’t know how you would feel about Ronald and Betany being married while you were gone.”

“I am sad that I missed it, but I…I suppose I did not expect that you would wait your ceremony until I returned. When I left, part of me thought none of you would ever want to see me again after what happened.”

Her father’s face darkened, and Ronald sighed.

“We were probably harsher with you than we should have been after she died.” Ronald glanced over at Betany and added, “We were definitely harsher than we should have been.”

“What about Noelle?” Leahna asked. “Does she still feel such anger toward me?”

“It is difficult to say,” Abner replied. “We don’t see her much these days either.”